“April, you used to ask a lot of questions back in highscool, some of them don’t even make sense..” This is one of the things my best friend remembers about me. To be honest, not a lot has changed. I still ask a lot of questions to this day and some are stupid.
One thing that 2016 has taught me is that it is never wrong to ask. You’ll never know what the answer will be. I have been wanting to progress in my career. Who doesn’t, right? After graduating from university, I got a job as an assistant in a laboratory. That was the first step anyway, be an assistant. But a year has passed and I was still an assistant. I remember writing down the things I wanted to happen in 2016 and the most impossible one was to get my placement which is by the way, very competitive. So, I had this room for doubt in my head that maybe it’ll happen in the next three years but I was hopeful. I sent my application everywhere, EVERYWHERE.
Finally, in February, I got an interview. I remember thinking to myself that I will not get this job and lo and behold, I didn’t. But the manager spoke to me and told me that they were impressed with my interview and said that if there is any opportunity for me in the future they will let me know. And that was it. I told myself I’ll move on and just keep applying. But I had this hope that maybe If I ring them again in the future they will take me in. I was so scared to ask and it felt too ambitious. Two months after my failed interview, I rang them and asked if they can offer me a placement. They said that they don’t have anything for me. I was devastated and slowly losing my confidence. That was the closest I can be to getting a placement but I told myself once again to just move on. I didn’t hold even a bit of hope. Two days after, I received a call from them and they offered me a job.
Let’s rewind back to the night before my interview. I was stressing out and I get really bad insomnias when I am stressed out. What I usually do is listen to preachings on youtube because who doesn’t fall asleep at church while the pastor preaches? Just kidding.. Little did I know that God will speak to me through this preaching which I was using as my lullaby. The video was around 25 minutes long but with all honestly I only remember about 30 seconds of it. The pastor said something like this. Even if it’s not your time, it is your TERM. I woke up the next morning with this line stuck in my head or maybe because it was the only thing I remember.
Ask and it will be given to you. Knock and the door will be open for you. I wasn’t offered the job after the interview but I believe that God worked and made it possible for me to get the placement even when there wasn’t any vacancy for me. I did not deserve the job and I thought it was long gone but God knows how much I need that job.
Don’t be afraid to ask especially if you know that it’ll help you or someone. What’s there to lose? I wouldn’t have the job I have right now If I didn’t have the courage to ring and ask for a job.
Learn to speak up.
Love, April.
//MATTHEW 7:7//
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